Time.

"As time goes on you'll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn't, doesn't. Time solves most things. And what time can't solve,  you have to solve yourself." - Unknown

Time. Years. Months. Weeks. Days. Hours. Minutes. Seconds. Collectively, it makes up our lives. 

Time is one of the most powerful objects on earth. Time has the unique power of healing whether it be nursing a hangover, getting over a break up or simply getting over a crush. 

The hardest thing about time is waiting. Watching that clock tick second by second, time passing ever so slowly. Watching the toaster cook your bread or watching the kettle boil the water, both simple tasks but painfully slow when it is the only thing you are concentrating on. It is only when you want time to pass that it stops, seemingly standing frozen in your pain.

But don't forget, time keeps ticking.

We can always find comfort in the fact that whatever happens, time will always move on, even if you are finding it difficult to. Whenever I am having a rough time I remind myself, whatever happens, I will still be in my bed tonight by 11pm. 

We have all had moments when we thought we would never recover. Whether that be the death of a loved one, being rejected by someone you cared about or even being sick. Guess what? You have made it. Time has passed. Time has healed.

Love, Nicole Marie

Duller than dirt.

"Drama is life with the dull bits cut out" - Alfred Hitchcock

It's easy to allow your life to become dull. To get stuck in an endless routine of the same old things, day after day after day... You wake up, you go to school, you come home, you do homework, you eat, you shower, you sleep. Simple yet boring. 

Personally, I like routine. I like knowing what I am doing during the week but sometimes routine is not enough. Sometimes routines can cause you to feel trapped in your own life. 

Life becoms so predictable that we just wait for the week to end so the cycle can begin again.

We complain that it's only Tuesday but what are you waiting for? I am waiting for the week to end but then it starts all over again. That's what the rest of my life will be, waiting for the week to end.

Don't let your life be dull like a pile of dirt. Instead, be the flower that emerges from the dirt, standing tall and high for its entire lifespan.

Wake up to your life like a flower waking up from the dirt. Start now, start growing.

Love, Nicole Marie

Blackouts.

'The next time you experience a blackout, take some solace by looking at the sky. You will not recognize it.' - Nassim Nicholas Taleb

Most people hate blackouts. I love them. A blackout is a forced excuse for you to simply be alone. No sound. No lights. Nothing.

It was only when the flickering lights disappeared into darkness that I finally felt free. 

Free from expectations. Free from 'friends'. Free from the demons that bring negativity into my life. 

A blackout leaves you alone, in darkness, with only your own thoughts to occupy your mind. This can be a scary yet freeing experience. For me, my phone died within minutes of the power outage meaning I had no one to talk to, no one to message. I didn't have to stop myself from checking a message that could potentially hurt me. It was like the internet and the big bad world had disappeared. I felt safe.

Blackouts can open your eyes to a world without technology. Yes, technology has brought amazing opportunities BUT it has been taken advantage of. Some things that have happened to a lot of us may never have happened without social media. For this reason I think it is important to make your own blackouts. Set time aside to be away from the world, blacked out from the life you have created online.

Try it, you might be surprised with what you discover.

Love, Nicole Marie

Calm After The Storm.

"Rain came pouring down when I was drowning. That's when I could finally breathe." - Taylor Swift

I used to hate storms. I feared them. I feared the possibility of getting struck by lightning or the possibility of losing power. There is a lot of things to fear about a storm but it is only when you appreciate the beauty of it that the fear disappears.

Last night there was a storm. A short lived storm but one of the most brutal that I have ever seen (and I live in Sydney so the storms here aren't that bad). The rain came first, sort of like the entree to a three course meal, small but just enough to keep you waiting for the main event. After the entree comes the main course, the biggest and most filling part of the meal. This is the lightning flashing through the windows of your bedroom, causing loud claps of thunder to vibrate through the whole house. That feeling that once scared me, now excites me.

Once the main meal had been served it's time for everyones favourite part, dessert. To me, this is the cleanliness felt after the storm has passed. People talk about the 'calm before the storm' but I think it's the opposite way around. There is peace and stillness AFTER the storm. The smell of rain in the air, the cool breeze, the darkness of the night... it is all so peaceful, so...clean.

I have been struggling lately. There have been some people who have made me feel like I was drowning, sucking the air out of my lungs. But as Taylor Swift so perfectly describes, 'By morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean'

And I think I am. I think I am finally clean.

Love, Nicole Marie

Some people care, some don't

'The best revenge is massive success' - Frank Sinatra

There comes a point in your life when you have to decide who are your real friends and who aren't. To decide who cares and who doesn't.

I have recently come to this point as graduating high school has opened my eyes. Once you leave school you discover who you were never really friends with at all. Along with this comes seeing who has time for you in their ever so busy lives (because it's not like you have a busy life too). These people are those who are only friends with you when they need to be, for example in class, but once out of that situation you are no longer needed. I have several situations where people are friends with me or simply nice to me just to get my study notes. After they get what they want, I am nothing to them.

Truth is, most people don't care. It's harsh, but it's the truth. I have always been the type of person to put others first  however now I realise that the people who don't care about me aren't worth it. They aren't worth wasting your time on. They are looking out for themselves, so I should be too. To my disappointment there are more people who are like this than people who aren't and I have to learn not to let this effect me. It is time to focus on myself and my own life.

If you have ever been in a situation like this then start living for yourself, not other people. And don't let the people who don't care step all over you. It's time to sift through those so called friends and decipher who is there to stay and who is just passing through your life journey. Make them wish and beg to be apart of your life again when you are successful, as they say, 'success is the greatest revenge'.

Love, Nicole Marie 

Peer Pressure; Alcohol.

“Do what you feel in your heart to be right- for you'll be criticized anyways.” - Eleanor Roosevelt.

I like to think that I respect myself enough to stand by my decisions, and if I go to a party deciding not to drink or if I don't want to drink at all I will follow through. But sometimes it can be difficult. It can be difficult to stay true to yourself when you have people questioning your every decision, or in this case, 'encouraging' you to have a drink.

I personally don't see why drinking or not drinking alcohol is a big deal. To drink or not to drink is a personal decision and should be one that you make on your own. I mean when you think about it alcohol causes a lot of the worlds problems and I personally don't want to make it a problem of my own. I have no idea what type of drunk I will be and sincerely hope I never find out.

As Eleanor Roosevelt said, you will be criticised no matter what you do. For example, you don't drink; you're lame. You drink too much and people still judge you. So I say drink or don't drink just do whatever you want and that applies to most things in life. BUT, whatever you do, stay true to yourself for as long as you know that what you do is right then that is all you need.

Love, Nicole Marie

The Unknown.

“The only thing that scares me more than space aliens is the idea that there aren't any space aliens. We can't be the best that creation has to offer. I pray we're not all there is. If so, we're in big trouble.” - Ellen DeGeneres

The unknown can be either scary or amazing depending on how you look at it. I mean thinking about what else is out there scares the bejeezus out of me but I still think it is wickedly cool. I just watched the movie 'I am number four' (Alex Pettyfer officially takes the award for hottest guy on earth) and it made me think about what's really out there.

The possibilities are endless! There could be life in other galaxies and planets with other people just like us (or they could be aliens and not like us at all). My point being that in comparison to what is out there, we are so small. I am one girl in Australia, which is only one country in our world and only one planet out of nine (yes I still count pluto) which is only one galaxy out of many in the universe...

We are so small.

Seeing as I have realised how small I am in comparison to the world, my goals have changed. If I can make a positive influence on at least one persons life then that is enough. So use the fear of how small you are to influence one other persons life and therefore we will create a chain effect of positive influences. That way we will all be apart of something bigger, something beautiful.

I always seem to get really deep in my blog posts but hey this is my 'thinking chamber'. Anyway I'll leave you all with your thoughts about aliens and the universe.

Love, Nicole Marie

Re-inspire yourself.

"The world is your stage, make it a performance of a lifetime" - I have no idea who said that but it was probably someone special and important

Sometimes we can all lose sight of what we want, or what we once thought we wanted. I think that through time we will discover what our true desires are and what was just another part of finding ourselves.

Today I have been re-inspired. I want to create magic that makes people feel something, whether that be laughter, inspiration, sadness (in the best way) or happiness. In fact, just being able to share something that I have put my heart and soul into is all I want. It could be in the form of blog posts, youtube videos, opening a cafe, movies, television, novels... the list is endless. These are all the things I hope to accomplish in life, ambitious... I know. I am a big believer in doing anything you set your mind to so I am going to start, one task at a time, and prove everyone who said I couldn't do it wrong.

So re-inspire yourself! For me it was watching a lot of Ashton Kutcher movies as well as crying my eyes out to numerous Nicholas Sparks movies (I really want to read the books too). Find something that re-inspires you, it could be books, movies, television or even people.

Today I have been re-inspired, and I can't wait for whats to come.

Love, Nicole Marie

Burn.

Burn.

As a verb, burn is defined as; be or caused to be destroyed by fire.
As a noun, burn is defined as; an injury caused by exposure to heat or flame. That's the type of burn I have as in a second degree burn that comes from being a barista (well an unofficial one). Although those types of burns feel like you are walking into the gates of hell, there are other, metaphorical, burns that can hurt just as bad.

I am talking about that destructive relationship that is in your life that can cause ultimate damage. For example someone who always makes you feel bad about yourself. I know many people have been in this boat, myself included. If you have ever been through this you will know that this type of friendship can feel just like a burn. If you don't know what that feels like, it feels like the devil is cooking you slowing alive... or just a stinging, fiery pain.

Ironically, while I am creating this blog post 'Shake it off' by Taylor Swift started playing on the radio. Whether you love or loathe Taylor we can all learn something from this song and that is to look at the situation at hand and simply 'shake it off'. Sometimes this is a good thing but sometimes you should do more than shake it off. Sometimes you need to separate yourself from the flames to save yourself, sort of like the way you run your hand under cold water for 20 minutes after a burn; they both can be life saving.

Love, Nicole Marie

First Blog Post Ever

Hello blogging world!


This is my first blog post so it is only fitting that I introduce myself... my name is Nicole and I am a 17 year old (soon to be 18) from Australia.


What makes my life interesting? Nothing really.


Why should you read my blog? I have no clue.


But what I do know is that I need somewhere to express myself and I guess this will be it. Follow me along on my journey through life where I discover new things, meet new people and complete my teenage years while having fun! (hopefully).


See you soon!
Love, Nicole Marie